I’m Only Pretending

I lay down, resting head upon granite cold

slowly drowning in my pool of melancholic

petty selfish ignorance, so old

you realize, I’m only pretending

o way o, I will need your support

please help me up off the floor, it cannot be, abort

a void drawing in failings because I cannot seem

to get up to redeem

you, I should carefully disguise

foolish thoughts

Must destroy what you made before

I can live again

I’m falling too fast and I fear

the angel’s scorn, she would not

teach me to fly my dear

I lost faith in myself somewhere in your touch

God Damn it all, I used to have strength

I so want to hate you, my Delilah

I wasn’t really pretending, not so much